Something of a rant and a little whine. IDK this is the part of me which is selfish and attention-whore-ish. I just wanna let it out. I have this obsession of having people draw my characters like as a gift for me, or maybe just draw my characters in a group shot or whatever. It’s such a flattering feeling, it makes me feel like I’m a part of something. It’s like they actually notice me and appreciate my characters. But I don’t really get these kinds of gifts.I don’t know, it’s just me, but, whenever I see a member of this group I’m in draw a group art of the group’s characters without my character in it, I just feel…so left out I guess? I know I’m a bit inactive, but..there ARE those people who are really inactive in the group yet they are cherished and talked about by others. Their characters are usually the ones that are drawn by others. Why is that? I don’t understand. Am I doing something wrong? I never force my members to draw my ocs. I’m even the one who draws their ocs quite often? Are my ocs that difficult to draw? Or are they getting irritated by my characters? Am I irritating? I mean..I try my best not to talk about myself in discussions, I try my best not to be the speaker so that people won’t get annoyed by me. I always listen. I am usually the third person. I know that this rant is really dumb and stupid and that I already know the answers to some questions in my mind right now..but..ugh. I just hate how I feel so left out. I hate how I’m such a bad friend. I hate how I just want everything to be about me. I just want my ocs drawn. For me that’s one of the best things one could do for me. When I get a gift art from someone (which is quite rare?) my heart beat starts rising and I feel like I’m in heaven. I feel so happy and loved by those few. I am thankful for those few who take the time to draw my characters and appreciate them. I am thankful for those who notice me. I’m such an ass. I’m such a selfish ass. ~AJM
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